Post by aedee madison valentine on Aug 27, 2009 19:10:13 GMT -5
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Aedee had yet another sleepless night by her self in the large country house on the edge of the town. Aedee usually never slept because of the nightmares that would occupy her dreams, she could never get away from them no matter how hard she tried so she just didn't sleep until it got to the point that she couldn't keep her eyes open any more then she would force her self to sleep. She was thinking about when she was going to start school, she was nervous and she didn't even know why. She knew no one would like her, she was the depressed new girl, that didn't really stick her in with the popular people so she didn't even try, she dressed how she normally would every day because she didn't need to impress any one. She was figuring she would screw up and get sent away again, she was so used to no one wanting her that it hardly phased her.
She tugged on a pair of black skinny jeans and a gray and white stripped long sleeved shirt that hid the multiple scars up and down her arms. It was a frequent thing she did, it made her feel better. She tried to stop but that didn't really work well for her because she just relapsed twice as hard. Self mutilation was her biggest problem and her biggest flaw. She almost never wore short sleeved shirts because she didn't want any one to see the scars that laced her arms. Some old and fading, some still new and tender to touch. It was a daily thing for her, along with the many suicide attempts that ran threw her head on a constant bases. She couldn't help it, she was depressed all the time and the chemo just mad it worse. She hated her life and she wanted to end it more then anything but something or some one always stopped her and it sucked. She was so pathetic that she couldn't even kill her self right.
Walking out the door she pulled her black hoodie on and flipped the hood up over her dark brown straight hair and climbed into the drivers side of her black Lexus. She didn't like the car and she didn't have her license yet her aunt and uncle insisted that she drove it. They weren't even ever home, her uncle was always in Hollywood and her aunt was in Paris so it was like she was living alone. She was always alone, she liked it better then having to move to a different foster home every few months. That was one of the reasons she was starting as a 16 year old sophomore, she missed to much school switching and not really caring. She parked and followed every one into the classes and sighed as she sat in her first period. Math. She sucked at math.
She got called up to the board and bit into her lip as she tried to write out the problem. She was wrong which resulted in her being laughed at and she ran out of the room grabbing her stuff. She got in her car and was glad that the rain had stopped finally. She drove past her house and just kept driving till she came to a part of the forest she hadn't been in before. She grabbed her back pack and slipped it round her shoulders pulling it tight, it had her razor blades in it. She grabbed her guitar case out of the back seat and walked to the middle of a clearing and sat down feeling the rain drops fall lightly on her black hair. She started to play and sing a song that she had been working on. It was about a stupid guy she still liked back in Texas but she knew she would never see him again. She sighed as she finished the song and tugged her sleeves up looking down at the cuts on her arms. Some new and some old. All Self Inflicted.
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ARE YOU DONE YET?:
WHO SINGS THOSE LYRICS?:[/color] Demi Lovato
WHO ARE YOU PLAYING WITH?:[/color] Open
WHERE ARE WE AT?:[/color] Forest
HOW HOT ARE YOU?:[/color] outfit here!
ANYTHING ELSE?:[/color] Kinda short :\
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